Being a working mum

at the moment is tough...Lukes still not adjusting totally and its been 10 weeks now...we had a sad moment this morning dropping him at school...sitting in the car and he had the saddest look on his face...so I asked him what was wrong...he said he didnt want to go to school and that he wanted to stay with JT when he gets home...I explained that sometimes he picks him up straight after work...so that wouldnt work as I have to leave for work earlier and he said he didnt want to go to school and didnt want me to go to work...because he misses me...it broke my heart...trying to explain to him that he has to go school for one and I know when he gets there he loves it...and that some mummies actually work more than me...so some kids only get their mummies for two days and he gets me the four days...looking at the positives...except when I pick up extra shifts like on Mothers Day and the Sunday after...but Im not telling him that...yet anyway...its hard because he breaks my heart that he cant adjust well...and I really would love to stay home and play housewife and mummy only but I cant...mentally I cant...I need the stimulation...with him at school all day I need to feel a part of something and that I am contributing to our future financially aswell...we can do more with him on weekends and holidays because we have extra money and bills get paid without stressing because my pay covers them when they roll in...our mortgage is getting smaller with the extra payments and we still can afford to do things...so take away my pay and we cant do anything...and Im really hoping that soon very soon Luke will adjust and this may bring JT and him a lot closer so they can have a really really close bond...they do already but closer...JT is finding it a bit trying too...but he just needs to find his groove...so Im trying to find a way to make him feel included in my worklife too...so he is coming in tonight to have dinner with me...after swimming...this will also be a hard road but hes a strong and accepting soul so I know he can get past this...it just shatters me when I hear that he was asking for me through the afternoon...I guess this is what they call mother guilt...anyone with any ideas Im open to them...please.