How unromantic ttc is at times

or lets just say all the time... it kills any passion or sense of adventure or just any of those things your meant to feel when being with the person you love especially at ovulation... just try putting yourself in the position where you need to book in a day to have sex... it kills it right there... its not about planning a special date night its all about the making of a baby... it has become virtually impossible not to think about it when I hit CD 13 and once again we have to start trying again... its like I count my life in cycles and in cycle days... and for far to long have I been doing this... whats brought this on you ask?... yep, yesterday was CD 13 so right on ovulation... and yep, we needed to "book" in... so being a Tuesday I was at work... finish at 9.30 at night and come home to my beautiful son lying in mine and JTs bed... so theres that problem... who needs a bed I bet you are thinking... well... Im tired... I feel dirty from work... Ive been annoyed while at work (not by anything work related) and to top it off... Im just not in the mood... too bad... its CD 13 and theres no turning back two days... so we managed to "try" and we did "succeed" and I guess thats what counts... so that brings us to today and CD 14... there I go in counting my days in cycle days... and yep, you guessed it another month... another cycle... another "date"... since we started treatment it has become so much more real and so much more technical if you can say that... three months and we are talking further treatment... IUI or IVF... how would I go with IUI... Id cope well Im sure... IVF... not so sure... and being in our second month of injections is just making it more intense... that third vial is still teasing me... so what will become of tonight?... I cant really say yet... but will "try" to atleast bring out that sexy mood in me after work while driving home after busting my a@@ for 7 and a half hours to do what should be the most passionate thing in the world... promise... but heres hoping Luke is lying in his own bed tonight.