Stupid ass needles

I hate them so much... JT had his second needle a few days ago now... so wishing he didnt have to but thats life... he was a little worried because the gp was a bit "older" and a bit more "shakier" than others... so he put it in the less fleshy part of his butt which means it hurt more... not that it would have compared to giving birth but I still feel for my poor guy... were onto CD 12 now... I hope JTs butt feels better soon... and I hope these needles work... its amazing to think that we had Luke and didnt even try and now we cant get our precious baby that we really would love to have... for us and for Luke... ironic isnt it... I swear the very last vial is teasing me... like its saying... "hehe Im the last one... and theres nothing you can do about it if you need to use me" or am I just going crazy... I feel so powerless against this... its like an insane war between me and that very last vial... lets hope we dont need it and we beat its ass...