Tt

f...ind another outlook...and tt...b...e more of who I used to be before this infertility thing stole my identity...JT and I found eachother again over the weekend...for the first time in a while we were able to just enjoy eachother and be like we were when we were free of this...it was wonderful and we are making the effort to keep it that way...we talked...we laughed...we talked more and laughed more...we watched movies together while holding eachother and we enjoyed eachother without the preconception of making a baby...its been great to do this...and its been such a huge weight off my shoulders that now I know that with whatever this infertility throws at us...we can pull through...together...so that leads me to CD 8...Im trying to keep as positive as I possibly can...JT has to go back to the docs on the 1st for his third injection...so CD 11...so we should be set for ovulation...were just going to see what happens this month then he'll go back for another test if it doesnt happen this month to check his levels...then we will have to go back to the specialist and take it from there...we are both hoping so bad we dont need to but will see what happens...not much else we can do...no other choice really...I just really feel now that with JTs support and love I feel so much stronger than I would without it...we talked about what may come after and he is all for it...we talked emotionally...physically and financially and we know where and what we both are looking at...this journey could be a longer one still after this month...this may fail but we will push through...we will keep trying...because aslong as we have eachother we can and aslong as this desire burns for another child we cant give up...even if we wanted to...so I guess we sit and wait till ovulation and just enjoy eachother until then...and let sadness out when we need to because there is no shame in that...its what keeps us together in this...the ability to share...our compassion and express how we feel...I wont count the days this month...or try atleast...but remind me when its the 1st of May.