Winging it

and not regretting it or wishing otherwise at all...not sure what Im talking about...as those of you that follow would know...Friday was the 1st of May and CD 11 so JT was due for his last injection...the gp wouldnt do it two days before as its a strong dose...and we all know things happen and stuff cant be helped...so on Friday he was kept back at work pretty late and there was a situation with sil and her girlfriend so I was called up to babysit while they went to hospital...so with Luke...Corey and a baby getting around and with JT finishing late and all the drama from the day and night...we discussed it and decided hed go on Saturday the 2nd and CD 12...we have become so preoccupied and obsessed with injections...dates and such we decided on Saturday that it was probably too close to ovulation to get it as JT gets a bit sore and making love doesnt become much of an option...so after all this talking and deciding and trying to see the bigger picture in our lives we have decided to wing it this month...to take the "trying" out of it if only for this month and just see what happens when we atleast try and stop the stressing at ovulation and just enjoy eachother...crazy maybe but I really think we needed this this month...just to let the reigns go a bit...so we were cuddled up on the couch on Saturday night and it occured to me we hadnt tried everything we intended in the past...that little bit of hope struck alight inside me and I started googling...I found reviews and happy endings all on the one webpage and was filled with hope again...possibly just maybe this could be our story...want to know what Im talking about do you...would you think Im nuts for thinking this could even work...well maybe I am...but two months of needles hasnt worked yet either so why not...what do we have to lose...I showed JT and he had a read and he was keen to try something new...and so I got the "product" out of the bathroom cabinet and lit some candles and on night 12 which was Saturday we made love like we were really making love...not just ttc...which was special...and on morning 13 we made love again...too soon maybe you say but what harm will it do and we connected again...on an intimate level that we shared so greatly before...so I bet your wondering what it is we used in place of the third injection and I bet you think were still crazy and pondering why we would go this path this month...but like I said the injection just was at the wrong time of my cycle...and we were still in the month of the last one...so Im positive we have done what is right and good for us...so this weekend was pretty damn good...and being CD 14 today you know what that means dont you...so now I have spilled nearly all of my most intimate details here...your probably still asking what it was I googled...so I was put onto a special lubricant by a very close friend of mine a while back and went and seeked it out...since then its been in my cupboard and untouched...never tried it once...so I googled and found all these stories that ended so happily and am hoping that I can post a happy ending too...

So this is what has me hoping this can work for us too...

www.preseed.com

You can go straight to the story link from the main page to see what has given me a spark of hope again...

So its basically about creating the perfect home and environment for JTs swimmers...

Do you think Im crazy...maybe but we have to try...and say this fails too JT is back to the doctors in a couple of weeks for the last injection so were set for ovulation...fingers crossed and heres hoping this craziness pays off.